Shades of grey, such is life

24 hours, give or take. That’s how long this post has been ruminating and developing. During that time I decided both that I would and would not write it. Even as I type these words now I am not sure if I will ever click Publish on this post, or just allow it to sit in limbo with some of its brothers that I’ve written but haven’t allowed to see the light of day besides from my (and mostly just one other persons) eyes.

Have you ever felt you HAD to tell someone something, but at the same time that there was no possible way you could? That you were so positive of your thoughts yet were afraid that if you shared them, it would just cause too much difficulty in other peoples lives? Or possibly you were afraid the results would not be as you hoped?

Sometimes you let your mind run away from you and fail to see things as they appear to be… or perhaps not. Life is never a series of absolutes, you can never be completely sure of how anything may play out. Sometimes you just have to have faith and hope for the best. But at the same time you worry that what you say or do will either not be received as you would hope, or possibly even be misinterpreted and cause even further confusion.

Black and white, I’ve never been one to even entertain the thought that anything in life is ever that clear, there are always consequences for actions (and sometimes lack of actions). What it usually comes down to is are you willing to risk what is already a known, and that things could change drastically in a far different direction than you would have hoped. Or do you take that leap of faith and hope that things work out well?

Sometimes I really dislike knowing something so fully, yet not knowing a damn thing.

Gerg