Falling into place – Part 2

After just barely a week of planning, it seems that everything has fallen into place so smoothly, that I could be making my move out of state much sooner that I had anticipated. I still have my trip coming up this week that I think will allow me to factor in an absolute date for when I will be moving, but there are not too many more things to work out. I have now spoken with virtually everyone close to me (there are still some friends that know that I was considering it, but not how well things have gone – unless of course they are reading this blog) but for the most part, everything has settled into place and is ready for me to actually be in Arizona. Once there, I still have a lot of stuff to work out. I’ll need to secure more income sources so we can look into getting someplace to live, for example. But overall, everything is in place and ready for us to go start on what I is looking like will be one of the times in my life that I will look back on and think, “That is when everything came together, and life started really becoming good”.

Since everything came together so well, I finally called my father and told him about the change. He was, understandably, shocked about my announcement, since this was a thought that was only in my head and I hadn’t really shared with anyone until VERY recently. But he was also excited for me at the prospects of what could be. Being that he is my father, he was fairly perceptive in asking questions about some things I told him to give him even more insight into it all (soon I hope to be able to share all the details of this entire adventure, but until the time is right certain things must remain between just those directly involved). His words of encouragement, and letting me know that some of the things we might think are “big” things, in the grand scheme of life will turn out to be much smaller than we realize. Sometimes, you just have to do what makes you happy, and let the rest of life settle around you. Sometimes we work things out in our head to be much bigger issues than they truly turn out to be. Only time will tell if that is the case, but I am truly hoping so in this particular matter.

I fly out Wednesday to do some more job searching, and get a better feel for the market I am looking into. I have a feeling there might be quite a bit of untapped potential in the computer industry in this particular area, and I’ll be able to use that to my advantage. Again, only time can confirm or deny that, but the journey of discovery is going to be one heck of a ride.

I have been in a bit of a euphoric state lately with all of these things happening around me. Even the fact that I don’t know how it might all end, doesn’t bother me in the slightest because it all feels so right. Like I mentioned before, my parents moved us all out to California from Ohio back in the late ’70’s. They didn’t know anyone out here, there was no family around, it was the ultimate leap of faith. Mine isn’t quite so dramatic as I have friends/family around the area, but I have a feeling it should still be scarier than it feels. That overwhelming “this is right” sensation is so strong that it overwhelms any doubts I might have and allows me to move forward. I honestly think this is going to be the start of the best part of my life, and having the people around that I do at the moment to share it with is just that much more rewardring.

That’s not to say I haven’t had my detractors that have told me this or that part of it is wrong. But a lot of that comes down to them being selfish and not wanting things to change for them. I know deep down they will be happy if everything works out like it appears it is going to, and the fact they are feeling worried enough to not want change to take place is comforting, But everyone has to do what they feel is right for them and not worry so much about how other’s might view things. Some decisions have a bit of a stigma attached to them, but unless you are one of the people DIRECTLY involved in the situation, you can’t possibly know all the nuances of the decisions being made. There is the possibility they will be proven right, but unless I take some chances and risk failure I’ll never know what could be the ultimate of happiness.

Gerg