What’s the meaning of this?!?!?!
My writing has always been sporadic at best. I’ve noticed that my best bouts of writing tend to occur when I am most inspired, and typically that inspiration arrives in the form of someone (and occasionally something) in my life. A muse if you will. Muses take on many forms, but the one that seems to both inspire me the most, and generate some of the better posts, tends to involve people in my life. I’ve always known I’m a person who thrives most when part of a couple. Not that I am unable to remain by myself, but when there is someone else who I am trying to include in my life (besides my kids obviously) I’ve noticed that I tend to most excel overall.
I’ve never worried much about how I am viewed by those not a part of my “inner” circle of friends and family. Not that I disregard their opinions completely, but I certainly don’t allow them to dictate the direction of my life. If I feel in the mood, then I’ll easily embarrass those around me. When I have someone in my life that makes me shine, I’ve learned that I then like to share that glow with everyone I encounter. Whether it is someone in a grocery store that laughs at my shenanigans, or the people of our group when we are out that just shakes their heads and wonders what I may be up to now, I just like making sure other people are having at least a portion of the fun I am.
My recent splurge of posts is attributable to someone in particular. Unfortunately, the position in my life that just a week ago I thought they would begin to play a major role in, has instead become more of a reserved role. I’ve noticed that has caused a decrease in my inspirational moments, but that will soon balance itself back out again.
I guess the point behind this post is to find what inspires you to be the most creative, and fill your life with it. But when it becomes outside of your ability to do that, work through and find another point of inspiration. People may notice that you aren’t “up to par” for a bit, but it’s still better to at least attempt to keep your inspiration alive while you rekindle your inspiration. I may have lost the level of my current muse, but I refuse to lose the hope that my muse will return, in what form or when is still left up to chance, but it will return.
-Gerg