The Gergorian Rant

It’s been awhile since my last post (big surprise there eh?). And there is quite a bit to report. First, I’ve started a job working for a company here that delivers home medical equipment. This doesn’t mean that I’ve given up on my own business (quite the contrary as this will now allow me to slowly develop the business instead of worrying about picking up whatever job I can so I can attempt to pay the bills). The kids are all doing pretty well, Josh is challenging a couple courses to ensure he can graduate because he informs me that his school neglected to tell him about 2 classes he needs. One of them he took, but because of the wording on his transcript from Hemet High it doesn’t “qualify”, the other is Arizona history. He will be challenging both classes so hopefully he passes and can graduate with his class at the end of the year. Billy is excelling in band, unfortunately he is slacking in most of the other traditional classes. I realize some of it is teenage angst and some is just hereditary (yep, I wasn’t the best of students) but I’m really hoping he comes around before he has to repeat a grade like his older brother did. Trying to impress upon him that it isn’t necessarily WHAT he is learning, but more about HOW to find the answers he needs. School is more about life lessons then actual education. That information is necessary, but there is a bigger picture to consider. And finally Brent has really started to catch on and even won an award in January for “Most Improved Student”. When we first moved out here and he started 3rd grade, he was actually just barely where he should have been the last few months of 1st grade. Now he is closer to where he would have been at the start of this year and is continuing to excel. The school system out here just seems so much more in tune with kids struggling and that each student is a unique challenge. Instead of labeling them as troublesome, they work with the kids to find out how they learn and then focus on those strengths.

On the work front, as I stated, I’ve started a new job and while it is exactly what I was looking for (something I could show up each day, do my job, and return home to focus on moving my business forward) I’ve got to say I have a newfound respect for people who work jobs such as this day in and day out for years and years. Everyone knows I thrive and a good challenge, and this job has those, but not nearly as many as I need. Thankfully starting your own business DOES offer them and it makes for a good balance. That’s not to say the job isn’t rewarding, showing up at someone’s home and getting them setup with the equipment they need to make their life a bit easier as their health starts to decline, is a great feeling. That is balanced out by finding out they have moved on to a better place (just started Monday and I’ve already had 2 patients we delivered equipment for pass on). It’s quite humbling, but I’m glad I can assist the families and let them know that they don’t have to concern themselves so much with the medical needs of their family/friend, and can instead focus on just being there for them. We will take care of the rest of it as much as possible. My mind is filled with suggestions for the owner of the company to make improvements, still a little early to know the best way to approach him with these suggestions, so I’ll just keep storing them away in my head and hope that the end result is something that will be mutually beneficial. I now have the luxury of taking the next year or two and slowly ramping up my business, and do my best to prepare for the day that I’m ready to completely venture off onto my own. In the meantime, while I work on my business, I’ll try to help improve the company I work for as I have always done.

I’m getting out a lot more (thanks to the guidance of my older brother) and meeting/making lots more friends. Another benefit of having the part time job is I can focus on just building my friendships around town. Get to know both the people better and the town, and as my friends increase, the opportunities for work will grow as well. I can honestly say that for the first time in my life, I am actually enjoying being single and am just doing what I do. When the time is right I’ll come across a special someone, and it will work out just as it was meant to. I may even already know that someone, could be from my past, or anyone. My mind is completely open to the possibilities that await me and I look forward to see where it all takes me.

Thanks for stopping by, I’m not even going to try to make the promise to post on a more regular schedule. Let’s just leave it with a simple, so long until next time we meet…

Gerg

Well, the car is packed and I’m ready to head back to California. This has been a very productive week (not on the work front unfortunately so I’ll have plenty to do this coming week) but the kids are all setup in school, Josh and Billy have already started. I have a local phone number and mailing address established, some potential work starting to line up, start of the business documents filed, and other miscellaneous tasks completed. That was a long sentence, but then again, this was a long week.

Didn’t really start the trip quite as I had hoped, but looking back on it now, I’m happy with where things are at the moment and am very excited for what the future could hold. One always has some items they wished they had handled differently, but now I think things are just where they need to be for now to ensure the long term contentment and happiness that I have been searching for. I’m overall pretty awesome (and humble), and as long as I keep being me, then things will have a way of working out exactly as they should (whatever that might be).

With each passing day out here I am more and more thankful to Lisa for the opportunity she is providing me to pursue my dreams. It is going to have quite an impact on her life while the boys and I work on getting our own place, but I know she does it without a single bit of regret and nothing I do could quite convey my gratitude to her for it. I’m not always the easiest person to be around (but then again who is) and when things really start to build on my I do tend to turn more inwards and contemplate what it all means. That doesn’t mean I am depressed, or sulking, or any of the other handful of titles that are generally used to describe moments like that. It simply is me, regrounding myself, and figuring out where I need to focus my energies to continue my trek forward.

Her kids are also really starting to find their way into the deepest parts of my heart that I generally keep fairly reserved. We all seem to think our own kids are absolute terrors, while others around us see the good in them. With her kids around lately it has helped me to look more objectively at my kids and what they are doing and try to understand it for what it is without my preconceived notions about what they might be “up to”. I know this whole arrangement can’t be the easiest on them, but as kids tend to do, they just roll with it and come up smiling on the other side (and that smile is contagious no matter how much turmoil is going on internally for me).

Brent flies home tomorrow (been WAY too long for him to be gone, I knew it wasn’t going to be easy, but having Lisa’s kids around helped that a bit, especially Zach who reminds me so much of Brent). With the similarities they have, Brent and Zach are either going to be great friends, or bitter enemies. Either way, it’s going to be something to see! I can’t wait to get back out here with Brent and let all the kids start hanging out. I am especially looking forward to having Brent and Lisa finally meet. Since Brent is such a natural flirt (not sure where he gets it) and Lisa being so open and loving to all the kids, I just know it’s going to be a good experience.

OK, I’m kind of rambling and need to hit the road, got quite a drive ahead of me. I just want to make sure that everyone knows how much I appreciate them and the sacrifices they are making. From my friends back in California who are encouraging me to chase my dream, to Lisa and her kids giving us the opportunity to take that chance. I love all of you and will always appreciate your contribution to all of this.

Gerg